aka grub. aka food.

I may never know a more pronounced dichotomy in my life as the one I experience with food. I love it, crave it, relish in its tastes and textures, spend most of my money on it, and greatly enjoy how it can bring people together. However, I also loathe its power over my body, mind, and habits; I hate what it does to my savings. My lack of self-control leads to an adverse body image, pessimistic outlook on my future health, discomfort, and social prejudice from those who dislike fat chicks.

So, what about food? It’s love/hate for me. And I think the way to turn it into Love/Love is to change myself: learn control, sacrifice, and budgeting so my portions are smaller, my wallet bigger, and my body healthier. Two major hurdles are adding excercise into my routine so I’m burning off more calories than I eat, and not splurging on fast food or meals out with friends to save money and be healthier.

Check out my inspirations for these thoughts:

One woman spent $30 in 30 days on food–starting from scratch and not spending a penny more. It’s a very interesting experiment, and her blog is a pleasurable and educational read. Read her blog.

Time Magazine did a photo essay on What the World Eats, based on this book. Not only does it give faces and visuals to cultures with which we may not be familiar, but it illustrates just how much we have and just how little we may actually need. See Part 1 and Part 2.



My life was dawdling in the Narthex of Cool (NC) before, but now it’s breaking all kinds of barriers into the Inner Sanctum of Radical (ISR).

It’s the little things, really: I just scored a bluetooth headset for 50% off when it wasn’t even on sale in the first place; I’m into a totally amazing guy and may get to be his totally amazing girlfriend; Christmas with my family was great, and I adore them because they’re just as nutty as I am; I get to go to Germany in one month!  I’m becoming more gutsy and honest about how happy I am with my life changes lately; My step-sister and I are real friends which adds to the very short list of women whom I trust with my true self; I’m having one of the easiest work weeks I’ve had in months (sorry CTI, I won’t bleed overtime this week!); My college friend just got engaged; and I found a great bridesmaid dress for my sister’s wedding.

And hell, the sun was shining today.

Welcome to the ISR.